Monday, September 29, 2008 / 10:24 AM
AH ! FERNANDO ALONSO IS MY NEW CRAZE ! :D
baby , i told you he'll win ! hahaha . although he was slow at first .. XD but yeah , lewis hamilton is great too . dun be too sad baby(: so i was watching F1 yesterday night . was quite boring . watching the cars go round & round & round . was hoping for more crashes . haha . to spice up the entire show . i love that part when massa drove his car away when the guy haven even finishes with the fuel ! & he was dragging the pipe along with his car . he lost alot of time thus , can see he was very very fustrated & lost his determination i guess ? felt quite sorry for him :( if its me , i'd have quited the race . call me sore loser or whatever . LOL .
argh ! i'm so so bored ! practically rotting at home luh . pfft . when can i go out with you baby ? school's gonna start in no time . thats worst . adding on to my misery . i mean .. i'm anticipating to find out who're my new classmates & to start a new beginning with them , of course . but the whole holidays , i haven really get to spend much with baby . & thats what makes me fustrated & upset at the same time . but i know he wants to earn money , for us to spend . thats why he's doing it . who loves to work anyway ? :(
Labels : you're on my heart just like a tattoo .
Sunday, September 28, 2008 / 5:55 PM
Scorpios are the most intense, profound, powerful characters in the zodiac. Even when they appear self-controlled and calm there is a seething intensity of emotional energy under the placid exterior. They are like the volcano not far under the surface of a calm sea, it may burst into eruption at any moment. But those of us who are particularly perceptive will be aware of the harnessed aggression, the immense forcefulness, magnetic intensity, and often strangely hypnotic personality under the tranquil, but watchful composure of Scorpio. In conventional social gatherings they are pleasant to be with, thoughtful in conversation, dignified, and reserved, yet affable and courteous; they sometimes possess penetrating eyes which make their shyer companions feel naked and defenseless before them.
In their everyday behavior they give the appearance of being withdrawn from the center of activity, yet those who know them will recognize the watchfulness that is part of their character. They need great self-discipline, because they are able to recognize the qualities in themselves that make them different from other humans, and to know their utterly conventional natures can be used for great good, or great evil. Their tenacity and willpower are immense, their depth of character and passionate conviction overwhelming, yet they are deeply sensitive and easily moved by their emotions. Their sensitivity, together with a propensity for extreme likes and dislikes make them easily hurt, quick to detect insult or injury to themselves (often when none is intended) and easily aroused to ferocious anger. This may express itself in such destructive speech or action that they make lifelong enemies by their outspokenness, for they find it difficult not to be overly critical of anything or anyone to whom they take a dislike.
They can harness their abundant energy constructively, tempering their self-confidence with shrewdness and their ambition with magnanimity toward others provided they like them. They relate to fellow workers only as leaders and can be blunt to those they dislike to the point of cruelty. In fact they are not above expressing vindictiveness in deliberate cruelty. They are too demanding, too unforgiving of faults in others, perhaps because they are not aware of the shortcomings within themselves, and extravagantly express their self-disgust in unreasonable resentment against their fellows. They do, however, make excellent friends, provided that their companions do nothing to impugn the honor of which Scorpios are very jealous. Part of the negative side of the Scorpio nature is a tendency to discard friends once they cease to be useful, but the decent native is aware of, and fights this tendency.
They are fortunate in that their strong reasoning powers are tempered with imagination and intuition, and these gifts, together with critical perception and analytical capacity, can enable the Scorpions to penetrate to profundities beyond the average. They have a better chance of becoming geniuses than the natives of any other sign. Brooding resentment, aggressive and sadistic brutality, total arrogance, morbid jealousy, extreme volatility of temperament, these are some of their vices. At the other extreme is the procrastinator, the man or woman who is capable of so much that they do nothing and become indolent and self-indulgent, requiring extravagant praise and flattery from those whom they make their cronies.
Scorpio is the symbol of sex and Scorpios are passionate lovers, the most sensually energetic of all the signs. For them, union with the beloved is a sacrament, an "outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual grace." Their overriding urge in loving is to use their power to penetrate beyond themselves and to lose themselves sexually in their partners in an almost mystical ecstasy, thus discovering the meaning of that union which is greater than individuality, and is a marriage of the spirit as well as of flesh. They are thus capable of the greatest heights of passionate transport, but debauchery and perversion are always dangers, and Scorpios can become sadistic monsters of sensuality and eroticism. Their feelings are so intense that even when their love is of the highest, and most idealistic kind, they are nevertheless frequently protagonists in tragic, even violent romances, "star-crossed lovers".
Saturday, September 27, 2008 / 8:39 PM
HELLO PEOPLE ! :D
went to baby's house in the morning to spend the lazy afternoon tgt(: he cooked lunch for me . & did i say cooked ? yes i did [: baby's such a great cook ! he's good at cooking everything & anything luh . his pasta is superb . he cooked curry before .. hor-fun too .. claypot rice & mee soup . was really amazed at his cooking skills . wonder where did he learnt them from ? he said he watched the tv & kinda like tried out himself . trial & error abit before coming up with the correct ingredients & amount to use . he looks so cool & serious when cooking . like some professional chef . hahaha . seldom got guys know how to cook at our age & century right ? not to mention the guys at shatec luh , of course . like hello .. baby didn't went through any course , teachings or whatever . he picked cooking up himself . how cool :D
lie on his lap & took a short nap while he was playing his PSP . love it when he stroke my hair & cheeks(: feel so blessed to be with him . despite all that we've went through in the past , i really love him with my heart & soul . i never knew i could fall so deeply in love with him . now , i can't imagine life without him . i hope he'll love me forever & stay with me through thick & thin . i can't afford to lose him again . once is enough .
anw , he sent me to church & waited for me at the bus stop till class end . how sweet right ? :D was quite hungry so we went to heartland mall to eat KFC . parted with him at the bus stop cause we're taking different buses & his bus came first . hate to watch him leave . minutes later , my bus came . at the next stop stood silly sim . YES , HE GOT OFF HIS BUS CAUSE HE MISSED ME WHEN WE ONLY PARTED FOR LESS THAN 5 MINS . was really shocked to see him boarding my bus luh . ahhh ! can't stop hugging him [: so he sent me home & took 21 from my house there . i love my baby so much . last time , he'll never do that for me . i guess he's really changed(: thanks for everything you've done for me(: many many loves ! <3
Even the best fall down sometimes.
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
Out of the doubt that fills my mind,
I somehow find you and I collide.
Friday, September 26, 2008 / 7:41 PM
today , baby took leave to pei me go kaikai [:
say nice is to accompany me lah . actually is to play street soccer with his friends . hahaha . but i'm still glad that we spent today tgt . met up early in the morning at 10.30 to eat breakfast at mac . walked ard in tamp mall & headed to the arcade . I LOST SO MANY TIMES :( i realised what a sore loser i am . i had fun despite all the ranting & shouting . haha . went to watch 'MAMA MIA' . there were only 8 people (including us) in the cinema . how pathetic right ? baby was like complaining that its such a boring movie & kept asking if he could play PSP . i was like NO . i know the show aint that fantastic & its not the usual kind that we'd watched but we still paid $12 altogether . & there isn't any nice movie recently ! dammit . 'Mirrors' is fucking M18 . rawr . i'd love to watch that show luh .
anyway , after everything , went to meet baby's friends . headed to some place near tamp stadium for their street soccer . totally embarrassed myself infront of his friends when i saw tons of cockroaches at the void deck & began screaming & jumping like some mad bitch . i practically jumped on baby's back & asked him to piggy-back me . he was damn shocked at my reaction . & he burst out laughing . how mean hur ? :( i was like scared stiff alr . thats not the end . sat down on the bench while baby's playing with the ball . saw a red ant crawling on my leg . there goes again . screaming & jumping like a mad bitch . his friends were looking , i swear . i didn't mean it ! but its like freaking scaring the shit out of me . yes , i'm that timid . by that time , i was fuming with rage . complaining & insisting that i wanna go home . hate that place . could tell that baby was angry & getting impatient with me . switched bench but it didnt get any better . that other bence had a bunch of red ants crawling at the sides . argh . but anw , in the end found a safe place to sit with no ants , cockroaches or whatever . like finally .
baby played well(: aggressive , tough , serious & superb as usual . love to watch him play soccer . even though he was sweating like mad , i love sticking myself to him , hugging him & giving him a peck on his salty cheeks . but sadly , he didnt wanna care me & asked me not to stick to him when he's sweating :( sigh . where on earth can you find a girlfriend who's willing to stick herself to you when you're sweating & stinking ? i bet most will ask you not to touch them & go further from them can ? anw , headed to ajisen for dinner . second consecutive day eating ramen(: haha . ordered spicy octopus ramen (dry) while baby ordered some spicy beef or something . he was like bathing inside ajisen can ? wet like dunno what while eating . i guess baby really can't take spicy food . but it aint that spicy .. to me . i love chilli & anything spicy . i guess my friends all know that :D haha .
baby sent me home & this was all for today [: i love you baby !
Labels : i just can't stop falling in love with you .
Thursday, September 25, 2008 / 11:05 AM
Here we are preteding we're okay
You can say what you want but you still can't fool me
The life we're living it's all masquerade
I try to smile but i can't remember how .
i may not be pretty
but i can drive you crazy .
Wednesday, September 24, 2008 / 1:08 PM
Love Quiz results of sharmaine poh
Dear sharmaine poh, You are a person who needs a partner who is responsible financially with an education, who will share responsibilities with you, support you emotionally and keep up with the heat and romance. Effort is a big thing for you and you need to see efforts being made by your partner often. Lack of efforts makes you feel like you may not be worth it in your partner's eyes and can cause problems in your relationship. Just remember that your partner can only do what he knows and cannot read your mind. If your partner is investing effort, but not quire as much as you would like, or not in a way that makes you feel special, just talk to him. Let your partner know that you love him and appreciate that he does for you, but also need and desire more. Then tell him what those needs and desires are. Open and honest communication with your partner will help your relationship grow into a more close and loving one. Understanding and caring about each other needs is key to making a relationship work.
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How satisfied are you in your relationship ?
Can't complain .
Good news — it looks like you're pretty darn happy with your relationship. Sure, you might want to change a couple of things — why can't he remember your anniversary for once?! — but overall, your answers tell us you're one satisfied customer. Surprised? It's normal to have doubts about how you and your guy are doing, but it's the big picture that counts. And we can see that, overall, you two are on the road to happiness. Of course, even the best relationships need work to stay in peak condition. It takes constant effort to maintain a good level of communication, keep your goals and hopes in sync (not the boy band ...), and make sure you settle conflicts before they get out of hand. And all that labor can't be one-sided — both you and your partner need to be committed to putting serious time and energy into making your union work. That said, your odds of making it are better than most, so give yourself a big pat on the back and go give your honey a hug.
What kind of girlfriend are you ?
Steady supporter .
Stand by your man — that's just something you naturally do. Once you've committed to a relationship, you are a constant companion who enjoys the comfort and stability that comes from being a couple. Not quick to judge, accuse, or think the worst, you have a lot of trust (in him and in yourself), and you rarely worry about where he is or who he's with. (not true .. =.=)
For you, mutual respect is of utmost importance. You are comfortable and confident in your own skin, making you a great pillar of strength in all your relationships. Whether he's striving to climb a mountain or land a promotion, you have his back. Best part is, you know he's got yours too.
You are The Empress
Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.
The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents, beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.
The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.
What Tarot Card are You?
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Monday, September 22, 2008 / 11:31 AM
so yesterday , went to my grandma's house at potong pasir . baby came over after his soccer training(: how sweet right ? hahaha . ate lunch at KFC then headed to my grandma house . all my aunties were around . baby was so shy ! how adorable(: he was trying to seduce my youngest cousin , javier over to his side . but sadly , he failed . LOL . better luck next time ! haha . i guess baby really loves kids . he says he wants a football team . i don't intend to have even one can ? its like .. of course i love kids . but the thought of having to take care of them is like a burden to me . i want to enjoy my life & not being tied down by kids . and yes , the giving birth process . can't imagine i have to go through that . pfft . oh well , we don't know what will happen in the future . perhaps , baby will have his football team ? =.= hahaha .
anyway , baby's bringing me to the CFC chalet later . hopefully , i don't feel too awkward . *cross my fingers* i really hope i can know his friends & to get along with them . i want to be in part of his life instead of just being in a relationship with him . i want to love the things he love , do the things he do . i just feel like a complete failure that after 1 year , i aint even an inch close to his friends . i mean .. if we are close , we can all go out tgt without having one party to feel awkward . isn't that great ? then baby can spend time with me & at the same time , with his friends too(: but i'm shy & an introvert , i guess its gonna be pretty hard . *sigh* actually , i'll feel timid , small & scared when i'm with a big group of people . i dunno why too :( unless they're my friends luh . dun worry baby , i'll try my very best ya ?
Labels : you changed my whole life , don't know what you're doing to me with your love .
Saturday, September 20, 2008 / 7:36 PM
nothing's going right . i thought today was gonna be a great day . well , it kinda was but i knew myself too well . damn . whats wrong with me ? why am i such a terrible girlfriend ? i just can't do anything right . i tried , really . i guess its just hard not to be ME . at least , i'm feeling better now . just kept telling myself not to think too much . sorry baby , its been hard on you :( its not like i wanna doubt you .. its an indescribable feeling whenever you're not with me . i'll feel weird & insecure all over . okay , i know i'm crazy .
so i guess baby's with wen bin now . & later , going his friend's house to catch the match between liverpool & stoke city . our time tgt is getting lesser & tighter . sigh . how i wish you can quit your fucking job asap . i'm dying for some time with you . i'm sorry you have to sacrifice your friends for me . well , aint a relationship supposed to be like that ? i've been trying to give in alr . i'm sure i've changed . not alot but a little is still a change right ? i hope you'll understand .
Labels : i'm just the worst kind . i hate myself .
Friday, September 19, 2008 / 1:27 PM
one litre of tears - only human .
On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile
On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile
But before we can go there,
is there something we’re waiting for?
In order to chase our dreams, we can’t have a reason to run away
We’ve got to go, to that far away summer’s day
If we find it tomorrow, we can’t sigh
Because like a boat that opposes the stream
we have to walk straight on
In a place worn down by sadness
something called a miracle, is waiting
Yet we are still searching
for the sunflower that grows at the end of spring
The warrior who awaits the morning light
before he can clasp it with red nails, his tears glitter and fall
Even if we’ve grown used to loneliness
only relying on the light of the moon
We have to fly away with featherless wing
just go foward, just a little further
As the rainclouds break
the wet streets sparkling
Although it brings only darkness
A powerful, powerful light
helps push us to walk on.
Labels : because we are but only humans . we don't treasure the things we can do . & when its too late , we regret . whats the purpose of living ? one litre of tears . i can't stop crying .
Thursday, September 18, 2008 / 1:41 PM
TA-DAA ! D:
my new blog skin ! isn't it simple & nice ? hahaha . spent quite some time doing it . anyway , today's a boring boring day for me luh . in fact , everyday is . rawr . can anybody save me from my misery ? BRING ME OUT TO PLAY YO ! yes , jobless once again . its not like i've did anything wrong or what .. but they just no need people alr . i'm like being paid to sit there & play psp . lols . guess thats why they wanna cut cost & fired me instead . well .. such a pity ! cause i really really love that job & the people there . auntie may ! i'm gonna miss you ! :( sigh . so everyday , on the com , blog , play & surf . pfft . hate it . oh , recently i'm watching this jap drama on youtube - one litre of tears . its damn sad luh . i'm on episode 8 & only cried once so far . haha . i'm not really into jap drama .. but since there's nothing to do anyway . thanks michelle for introducing this show to me ! if not i'd really be bored to death .
p.s: baby , i miss you . when can we spend some time tgt again ? looking fwd to saturday . hopefully , i can make it . & don't think too much ya ? i only love you lah silly . my heart is small & can only contain you !
Wednesday, September 17, 2008 / 10:29 AM
went to watch '4bia' with baby yesterday . wah , i tell you .. its the first horror movie that freaked me out so much that throughout the whole movie , my hands were on my face . the first story was quite alright .. nothing much . the second story was gross & bloody . eek . the third story was funny . hahaha . but quite sad actually . they didn't know they died alr :( the forth story was scary ! argh . didn't even watch any decent part of it . was hiding behind baby's back . LOL . i remember got one part very funny . cause i was hugging him so tightly , one of my hand was under his armpit . & i didn't know . then the scary part came , i screamed & grabbed his armpit . HAHAHA . so after the oh-so-scary movie , headed to far east . baby wanted to shop for his jeans . before we went home , passed by a shop which sells digital cam . saw one which was okay & price affordable . the pink fujifilm de .. 8.2 MP .. which costs $199 . i'm really not into digital cam so i dunno if its alright . so if any of you people out there reading my blog , can give some advice on comments ? haha . i'm intending to buy a digital cam less than $300 . which model or brand should i buy ? tee-hee D: all comments & advice would be much appreciated !
Tuesday, September 16, 2008 / 10:09 AM
yesterday had class chalet . but i didnt stayed over , went for the BBQ only . great food i must say(: love the black pepper steak . many thanks to the guys & girls who helped . so before the BBQ started , my girls and i were strolling around the place , enjoying the view of the sea & of course .. cam whoring . tee-hee D: thanks girls ! its been so damn long luh . AND OH OH . results were out yesterday . was quite alright . wasn't very happy , neither was i very sad . haha . so anyway , back to the class chalet topic .. baby was very very nice to me :D he sent me home ! really didn't expect him to do that . he reached home at about 11.30 pm ? aww . was very guilty actually . sorry & thanks plenty baby ! love ya . x)
p.s: pictures taken will be uploaded asap .
Sunday, September 14, 2008 / 3:34 PM
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because you loved me
& obviously there's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like "I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
& soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
& I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye
And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever .
Saturday, September 13, 2008 / 11:08 AM
anyway , on friday after work , went out with baby & his friends to celebrate marvin's birthday . ate steamboat at bugis . had lots of fun ! the guys were really funny . hahaha . dinner was great too . baby was being a hungry ghost , eating non-stop . left the place at around 9 plus & took bus home . baby was really sweet to send me home despite being very very tired after a long day . BUT .. he still wanted to join his friends in soccer at like 10 plus ? was quite upset . only soccer can seem to 'arouse' him somehow :(
saturday - helped out at my father's workplace . super boring i tell you . i was just sitting there , stoning & looking at people walking by . almost fell asleep at certain point of a time . baby was nice enough to pei me sms . but later he went to his friend's place to watch soccer . LIVERPOOL vs MAN-U . baby's was being ecstatic when liverpool won by 2-1 . haha . liverpool rocks seriously :D after he came back from his friend's house , what happened i don't wished to talk about it .
i'm starting to trip .
i'm losing my grip .
& i'm in this thing alone .
Friday, September 12, 2008 / 10:47 AM
i'm so loving my new job(: love the people there & the food there ! i get to eat free & delicious food everyday . haha . i'm working at SATS ICC1 where they prepare food for passengers in the air planes . i'm working as a waitress , serving all the big bosses in the company . cool right ? :D i get to see the CEO & board of directors when they're having a meeting . i served the CEO & his guests when they're having lunch at the executive dining room , discussing about company's matters . the next day , he even remembered me & praised me that i did well yesterday !
the first day when i arrived at work , i thought i was a temp admin girl . later when i found out i was suppose to be a waitress , i was shocked & a little upset of course . like wtf ? there was auntie may calling up the HR people & checking if they sent the wrong person . cos i have got no serving experience . though i worked as waitress before , i'm not the one they're looking for . so auntie may was a little fustrated at first cos she has no idea why i'll popped up suddenly . she told me i'm the 4th alr . cos previously , the ppl they hired all didnt turned up the next day . she was afraid that i'll be like them . but after that , she taught me lots of stuff . including table manners that i didn't know of . like how the utensils should be placed , how to know if they've finished eating & etc . she's really nice . she gave her lunch to me & ate bread instead . & she'd buy breakfast for me every morning(:
so .. whenever there's meeting or what , the chef will cook . like on the first day , the CEO organised a lunch with dunno who . the executive chef , which is also the highest ranking chef in SATS came down & prepared the lunch . & guess what ? after everything , he prepared two plates of steak , tomato soup & left-over garlic bread for me ! :D can you imagine ? i'm like super super honoured luh ! every now & then , i'll get food to eat . i think i'm sure to grow fat . HAHA .
coincidently , baby's working there too ! he's at level 1 while i'm at level 3 . he get free food to eat too . argh ! tubes & tubes of hagen daz . i havent get to eat one of those though :( this job is way cooler than my previous one . i'm loving it ! D:
Tuesday, September 9, 2008 / 11:06 AM
State the obvious,I didn't get my perfect fantasy
I realized you love yourself
More that you could ever love me
So go and tell your friends
That I'm obsessive and crazy,that's fine
I'll tell mine you're gay .
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How about a round of applause
A standing ovation
You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out
Don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow
Grab your clothes and get gone
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talking about, girl, I love you, you're the one
This just looks like the re-run
Please, what else is on
And the award for best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech out
How about a round of applause
A standing ovation
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow
But it's over now.
Labels : i'm NOT okay .
Saturday, September 6, 2008 / 8:59 PM
hello there ! D:woke up early in the morning today & surprised baby at his house . was planning to take mrt but there's this stupid uncle who was riding on his bike & kept stalking me . he was like 'xiao mei mei , want make friend ?' (in chinese) i was freaked out . walked to the main road to avoid him & saw a taxi so decided to cab to pasir ris . $11 . =.= reached his house & he was shocked . it took him afew seconds to recognise me can ? lols . prolly cause its been 6 days since we last saw each other & ya .. my hair . went to extend it . so what ?after that headed to white sands & ate swenses for lunch ! chilli fish pasta is my all time favourite :D took train to suntec to get baby's sony MP4 . i bought it for him as our 14th month anniversary present . its damn cool & nice can ? how i wished i had one too .. oh well . hahaha . anw , hope you like my present for you baby ! (:
went over to marina square and wanted to shop for baby's jeans . but couldn't find any that he like . by that time , my feet was aching like fuck . my stupid new shoes bought from mondo is killing me ! the stupid auntie don't let me try size 36 & insisted that 35 is just nice for me . argh , 4 fucking blisters :( hm .. wen bin came shortly to join us for dinner . ate at hans . ordered pasta again . but of course , it can't be compared to my chilli fish pasta . lols . we were talking nonsense all the way at hans . went to the arcade & played daytona ! the first time , i played against baby & i fucking won him ! HAHAHA . every single time we play , i sure win him one lor . this shows that i'm a good female driver luh . lols . second time , wen bin joined . wen bin came first , i was second & sadly .. baby's last ! aww ~ (HAHA) third time , i lost . terribly . i came in last . but hey ! i swear i was leading okay ?! they were like fucking banging me from behind . thats why i lost .. :( i went kinda hysterical & began shouting , screaming in the arcade . sorry baby ! didnt mean to get so upset when i lost . sorry sorry . =x
anyway , today was fun(: enjoyed myself alot . although some asshole didn't get anything for me except treating me lunch & didn't keep to his promise of bringing me to somewhere ! hur hur . haha . oh well , i still love that asshole very much ! thanks for everything today love ! <3
Labels : HAPPY 14TH MONTH BABY ! XOXO !
Thursday, September 4, 2008 / 9:39 PM
I said I'd never forget your face, vaulted away inside my head
And memories never seem to fade
You were the best part of my life, my last regret
Now I've walked this line a thousand times before
it hurts too much to bear
For you I'd tear out my own heart
& write our names together
Your love is the barrel of a gun,
so tell me am I on the right end
I could be nothing but a memory to you
Don't let this memory fade away
And in the end we're turning on and off again
There's a look in your eye and it's screaming goodbye
I'd hate to watch you cry .
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this post is specially for my darling , sim jingheng(:
no amount of words can describe my love for you . i know recently , alot of things had happened . it all happened too fast for us to apprehend . heaven is making a fool out of us i guess . making us feel/think that we were not meant for each other . after a big round , we ended up tgt again . it is common for couples to break & patch numerous times but this time , we're gonna stay tgt till the end of time love :D
we used to talk about OUR future . like what to name our children , how many children are we gonna have , where are we gonna go during the holidays & etc . i remember you said you'll bring me on a back-pack tour & yes , a trip to liverpool . it seems everlasting that you'll always be mine . though 11 days ago , my dreams about us were dashed . completely . you wouldn't imagaine the pain that i went through . & i don't ever want to go through the pain again .
we've been tgt for 1 year 2 months by now . i know its not a great deal of time . but what we went through are definitely not what other couples went through . just imagine a couple can be shouting their heads off at each other in the public ; our every month anniversary never fail to be 'SURPRISING' . to think of it , i'd simply describe our relationship to be a rollar-coaster ride .
i'd never love another as much as i love you dearest . don't say that its too early for me to say this . i'm sure of my own feelings . i don't ever want to think about who's gonna be my husband but all i want now is to be with you every minute , every second . i want to love you . i'm really trying my best to change . hope you can appreciate even the smallest thing that i'm trying to do for you . you ought to know by now , how much you mean to me . i need to know that from you too . sorry that i've been kinda horrible in the past . you were mean too okay ! but now , everything's changing . to the girls out there : don't ever think of coming between us . i'll never let you off . & my baby's aint gonna be tempted . just fuck off & leave us alone . esp YOU bitch . don't ever sms/call him again . he's mine now & forever . he'll never want to get back with you . get that .
Labels : i love you . xoxo .
Monday, September 1, 2008 / 8:48 PM
(argh . hate it when my hair is like that .
aint suppose to have an opening .)
fuck my job . fuck the people there .
i don't fucking care about the pathetic $6 per hour .
fuck my brain , my heart .
fuck everything . _l_
sometimes , staying sober is so painful .
put me into sleep right now .
in simple words : JUST KILL ME .
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是你在那個雨季 走進我生命
帶著一點任性 和溫柔的表情
是你在那個雨季 趕走了孤寂
溫暖的笑容 換我僅有的天地
天上一萬顆星星 我卻只看見你
要說這是幸運 還是不可思議
身邊有太多風景 我卻停在這里
說我傻的可以 還不是因為你
是你的聲音 帶給我勇氣
戀愛的頻率 直到我心底
如果你愿意 是的我愿意
來自我幸福的主旋律
從前都失意 現在我相信
天空會放晴 愛會更甜蜜
如果你愿意 是我的愿意
愛的主旋律 永遠唱下去 ♥
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我揉着哭红的眼睛
你让我眼神跟优裕
心疼我却无法安慰我
你说着世界冷冰冰
你怀疑什么是真情
想放弃想远远逃离
伤,放一旁别在多想
将过去一忘
让我为你准备一个家
爱在爱你,爱在爱你
从我们想与那天起
不要哭泣,不要哭泣
你应该被珍惜
爱在爱你,我直想爱你
就算你会不答应
我会继续静静等待
留在你身边陪你守护你 ♥